It hurts to know...

It hurts to know that the person who matters the most to you,
You mean nothing to that person.
It hurts to know that the person you thought understands the most to you.
Is horrible at it in your worst times.
It hurts to know when the people you love the most,
Actually just pretend so.
It hurts to know that when you trust a person the most,
That person doesnt trust you as much as you do.
It hurts to know that you ain't really happy inside
When everybody thinks you got a perfect life.
It hurts to hear that "Oh! You got so many people."
When actually numbers don't really matter.
It hurts to know that people think of you so low
Even though they dont know a thing about you
Even thought you don't give a fuck about thier thought
But it still hurts.
It hurts to know that the person you were, the strong one
Is now nowhere to be found inside you.
It hurts to know that you lost a part of yourself.
In whatever the fuck you were doing.
It hurts to know that you got weaker
Day by day
And those rare tears that made you feel strong
Are now just a daily thing that gets you vulnerable.
It hurts to know...